It's still Tuesday in my head, but I suppose it will date this as Wednesday the 27th, and therefore Day 9, so whatevs.
I found out who my big is tonight! It's Brie! Yay!
I love it! She was my first preference, so this makes me happy!
It was a good night, after reveal we went and sat in Carmen's apartment and had cookies, and later, Taco Bell! I love these people, we have got to hang out more often. =)
That's about it. =)
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Day 6
Well, I'm back at OCU.
I went home for the weekend. It was good...even if I did have to sleep on the couch. I got to eat my mom's cooking, and visit her church, and lay around with my little sisters and goof around with them. It was just what I needed.
I also discovered my cure, I think.
Whenever I start feeling crappy about Sonny being gone, or thinking of all the bad things that could possibly happen, or worrying if we'll last with the distance, it helps if I think about the future.
Talking about the future with him is even better, but just thinking about it helps too.
I know everybody says (and specifically tells me) that it's not goodbye, only see you later, it won't last forever, the six months will fly by...
But honestly, it won't. It didn't last time, and it won't this time.
I can't make myself feel better by trying to tell myself it will go faster, when I logically know it won't.
What will have to get me by is that it is not forever, that he will come back eventually and we will have years and years together. =)
Is that the same thing? In my head it's not.
Last night we were talking about holidays, how Christmases and Thanksgivings were when we were kids, and it just made me happy. Probably the most content I've been since he left.
My favorite thing that he said was when we were talking about Thanksgiving and trying to decide whose family we'd spend it with, he said, "We can have our own Thanksgiving when we have kiddos =)"
I love him for remarks like that. I mean...I love that he's as serious about this as I am.
We're in this for a long haul. I mean, he was gone for six entire months and yet he came back and we still fit so well together, it was as if he never left.
We're not just playing around. =)
P.S. He said he's going to buy me an engagement ring sometime soon. Shh, don't tell. =)
I went home for the weekend. It was good...even if I did have to sleep on the couch. I got to eat my mom's cooking, and visit her church, and lay around with my little sisters and goof around with them. It was just what I needed.
I also discovered my cure, I think.
Whenever I start feeling crappy about Sonny being gone, or thinking of all the bad things that could possibly happen, or worrying if we'll last with the distance, it helps if I think about the future.
Talking about the future with him is even better, but just thinking about it helps too.
I know everybody says (and specifically tells me) that it's not goodbye, only see you later, it won't last forever, the six months will fly by...
But honestly, it won't. It didn't last time, and it won't this time.
I can't make myself feel better by trying to tell myself it will go faster, when I logically know it won't.
What will have to get me by is that it is not forever, that he will come back eventually and we will have years and years together. =)
Is that the same thing? In my head it's not.
Last night we were talking about holidays, how Christmases and Thanksgivings were when we were kids, and it just made me happy. Probably the most content I've been since he left.
My favorite thing that he said was when we were talking about Thanksgiving and trying to decide whose family we'd spend it with, he said, "We can have our own Thanksgiving when we have kiddos =)"
I love him for remarks like that. I mean...I love that he's as serious about this as I am.
We're in this for a long haul. I mean, he was gone for six entire months and yet he came back and we still fit so well together, it was as if he never left.
We're not just playing around. =)
P.S. He said he's going to buy me an engagement ring sometime soon. Shh, don't tell. =)
Friday, October 22, 2010
Day 4
Well today's kind of a blahhy day, so I decided listing things I like will make it better.
I like:
my makeup today.
Mountain Dew.
horror movies on AMC.
Sonny.
when Sonny kisses me on the hand.
when Sonny kisses me on the forehead or cheek.
the way Sonny looked at me when he said he was falling in love with me all over again.
laying in my bed with Sonny.
the way Sonny holds me when I'm crying.
the way Sonny wipes my tears away and tells me I'm still the most beautiful girl in the world.
...crap, now my eyes are all watery.
Blah blah blah.
The family should be here in approximately twenty minutes.
Sleepwalkers is on AMC right now.
It reminds me of when I was little and we lived in the apartment in Idabel and Maxine and Ted would bring Cameron and Brett over, along with a couple of two-liters of pop and snacks, and we'd watch this movie.
My toes are cold.
I kinda want some chamomile tea.
But I'm too lazy to get up and drag the microwave out from under Stacie's bed.
Cold cold cold.
I think it's colder in my room than it is outside.
Know what I should be doing? My shoe drawing for drawing class, studying for my art history test, writing a psych paper, studying for French.
Know what I'm going to do? Put Lady Gaga back on my iPhone, along with the videos of me and Sonny.
Rawr.
I like:
my makeup today.
Mountain Dew.
horror movies on AMC.
Sonny.
when Sonny kisses me on the hand.
when Sonny kisses me on the forehead or cheek.
the way Sonny looked at me when he said he was falling in love with me all over again.
laying in my bed with Sonny.
the way Sonny holds me when I'm crying.
the way Sonny wipes my tears away and tells me I'm still the most beautiful girl in the world.
...crap, now my eyes are all watery.
Blah blah blah.
The family should be here in approximately twenty minutes.
Sleepwalkers is on AMC right now.
It reminds me of when I was little and we lived in the apartment in Idabel and Maxine and Ted would bring Cameron and Brett over, along with a couple of two-liters of pop and snacks, and we'd watch this movie.
My toes are cold.
I kinda want some chamomile tea.
But I'm too lazy to get up and drag the microwave out from under Stacie's bed.
Cold cold cold.
I think it's colder in my room than it is outside.
Know what I should be doing? My shoe drawing for drawing class, studying for my art history test, writing a psych paper, studying for French.
Know what I'm going to do? Put Lady Gaga back on my iPhone, along with the videos of me and Sonny.
Rawr.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Day 3
Well, I suppose I'm falling back into some semblance of routine.
Thursdays have become the worst day of the week, though.
Here's how it goes down:
Thursdays have become the worst day of the week, though.
Here's how it goes down:
- Wake up at 10:30 to go to Apps in Psych, or earlier if I have something I need to finish
- Go to lunch afterwards
- Head back to the room to clean it up and finish anything for Bib Lit
- Got to Bib Lit at 2:30
- Head straight to Honors Intro to Psych at 4
- Head straight to work at 5:30, and work until 7
And in the case of today, it was head straight to the Alpha Chi house to get my envelopes and letters for the St. Jude's fundraiser, then straight to my room to fill out said letters, address said envelopes and stuff said letters into said envelopes.
THIRTY freaking FIVE of them!!!
Ugh. It took forever and three years.
During which I had a migraine.
I never really realized how much I need time to just sit and relax at some point in my day. I can't run around like a crazy person, or I drive myself crazy with stress.
It doesn't help that my Fall Break was terrible.
I think I'm gonna drop something. I'm not sure what.
I'm thinking Alpha Chi or work.
...considering Alpha Chi doesn't get me 100 dollars every two weeks, I think I know what I'm choosing.
P.S. I figured out how to text message South Korea.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Day 1
Well, this is only my...probably fourth or fifth blog, I think.
I always start them and never keep up with them.
Maybe it'll be better this time.
What's the point of this? Well, right now it's to keep me from driving myself into clinical depression and/or insanity because the only thing that keeps me sane is currently flying halfway across the world.
But let's not get into that.
I'm Rachel.
(Rachie, Rachello, Wa-Wa, Achie, whatevs)
I'm 18 and a freshman in college, majoring in Studio Art and Psychology, with a minor in Child Advocacy Studies, plus an emphasis in Art Therapy and Pre-professional studies.
Yeahhh.
464 days.
That's how long I've been with the love of my life.
I've only known him for, only about, well, idk, 15 years.
He's the only part of my future that I'm sure about.
He's on his way to Korea.
Dumb Korea.
First Georgia stole him, now Korea has.
Arggh argggh arghhh.
He's on the flight right now.
Let's sleep forever.
I always start them and never keep up with them.
Maybe it'll be better this time.
What's the point of this? Well, right now it's to keep me from driving myself into clinical depression and/or insanity because the only thing that keeps me sane is currently flying halfway across the world.
But let's not get into that.
I'm Rachel.
(Rachie, Rachello, Wa-Wa, Achie, whatevs)
I'm 18 and a freshman in college, majoring in Studio Art and Psychology, with a minor in Child Advocacy Studies, plus an emphasis in Art Therapy and Pre-professional studies.
Yeahhh.
464 days.
That's how long I've been with the love of my life.
I've only known him for, only about, well, idk, 15 years.
He's the only part of my future that I'm sure about.
He's on his way to Korea.
Dumb Korea.
First Georgia stole him, now Korea has.
Arggh argggh arghhh.
He's on the flight right now.
Let's sleep forever.
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